Lefebvre, the television announcer for the Kansas City Royals, began a broadcasting career during his freshman year at the University of Minnesota in 1992 when he called football games on the radio for the Golden Gophers. He was hired by the Minnesota Twins in 1994 and has been a television and radio announcer for the Royals since 1999.
At one time, Lefebvre looked to his career success for happiness, but could not find it there. He sought in vain to fill an emptiness that remained within. The 40-year-old Lefebvre recounted his struggles with alcoholism, depression and anxiety in his 2009 release The Shame of Me, One Man’s Journey to Depression and Back. He has learned a great deal about the role of faith in daily life and has made noteworthy improvements, but still considers himself a work in progress.
Lefebvre spoke with Trent Beattie during spring training in Arizona.
What are you looking forward to with the Royals this season?This year it has been said by many publications that the Royals have the best minor league system in baseball. Hopefully this will help reverse the trend for the past five seasons, which have all been losing ones. … Something that’s interesting about baseball — whether it’s the players or those of us who work in broadcasting — is that it’s not just a job, but a lifestyle. For five months in the off-season you’re on your own schedule 24/7, but during the seven months of the season, it’s totally the opposite. You’re on someone else’s schedule almost 24/7. You’re away from home about four months of the season, with a day off every 10 days or two weeks.
What is one of your best baseball memories as a broadcaster?One of my all-time favorite games to call was David Wells’ perfect game in 1998 at Yankee Stadium. I was with the Minnesota Twins at the time and got to call that one on TV and radio. That was very memorable, along with the final game at Tiger Stadium in Detroit in 1999. Robert Fick hit a monstrous Grand Slam in the bottom of the eighth inning, and it ended up being the last hit in Tiger Stadium.
What was one of the lessons your father, former Major League player and manager Jim Lefebvre, taught you regarding baseball that could be translated into everyday life?One of the things that really stood out for me from his managerial days was that he was always very poised with the media. I would be in his office with him and some reporters, and even when he was asked a sub-par question, he didn’t treat it as such. He treated each question as if it were important, even if it really wasn’t. The only exception would be if he knew the reporter was trying to bait him.
My father not only treated the reporters with respect, but so many other people as well, especially those behind the scenes. He knew the parking lot attendant’s name, the security guard’s name, the bat boy’s name. Those people not always considered important were seen as such and treated as such by my father, so that really stays with me.
You’ve been around professional athletes your entire life. What are some of the major misconceptions that people have about professional athletes? The biggest one is that because they make a lot of money and are famous that makes them happy. The fact is: It’s really just the opposite. People tend to think that professional athletes are extraordinary people, but I’ve often remarked that professional athletes are ordinary people in an extraordinary situation. Most of them love what they do — that is, their specific sport. That’s good so far, but then comes the added aspect of, Wouldn’t it be great to play my sport in front of a crowd of thousands, to be on the cover of a magazine, to sign a multimillion-dollar contract …
Those external goals can be traps that make you think happiness is found in things outside of yourself. The more you strive for them and the further you advance in getting them, the less content you become; but then you’re deceived even further into thinking you need more of them to be happy. There’s a saying that you can never get enough of what you don’t really need, and the odd thing is: The more things you have, the less happy you tend to be.
I can definitely relate to this trap because I fell into it myself. When things aren’t taken for what they’re really worth and managed properly, all kinds of problems can ensue.
How did your experience with depression and anxiety begin, and how did it continue?It began when my parents divorced; I was very young, about 5 years old. I didn’t really notice the problem, though, until I was in high school. I was out of my comfort zone at an upscale all-boys Catholic school in Los Angeles, and that’s when the alcohol abuse began. Even though I was in what would be called the “in crowd,” I still felt out of place. Instead of dealing head-on with the issues I was facing, I decided to self-medicate with alcohol.
Then, oddly enough, the problem took a new turn, when I gave up drinking in January of 1998. People were congratulating me on being sober, but the reality was that I had to face unresolved issues without my usual medication. Obviously, becoming sober was a great step in the right direction, but there should be proper support there when that happens. Otherwise, you’re confronting issues alone, and that’s when the depression can set in.
Depression and alcoholism are really the same thing, which is the inability to cope with life’s problems. By August of 2005 I was overwhelmed with problems and was so desolate. Picture a 34-year-old man on the floor in the fetal position crying his eyes out. That was me. I couldn’t take it anymore and decided to get help. I called my mother, went to counseling and to a life coach. Instead of hiding my problems, I accepted them and shared them with other people who could help.
Was there a correlation between the lack of practicing the faith and depression? My priorities were out of whack. I thought that attaining certain outward goals would make me happy, so I was very much into accomplishing them. They weren’t bad in themselves, but when you treat them as being more important than they really are, then you’re in trouble. It can become an idolatry of sorts, and then other things which are inherently sinful can intrude as well.
I learned the hard way that nothing material can make us happy. We can get little highs here and there, but if we really want lasting happiness, then we have to humble ourselves and let God into our lives. Once the focus is off self and material things, we can begin to heal, become happy, and then help others do the same.
One of the great ways to do this is through the sacrament of reconciliation. Instead of just thinking of it as confessing sins, there really is a reconciling that goes on. It’s about asking for forgiveness from God and from those we’ve hurt, mending broken or bruised relationships. The confessing part is a means to an end, and the ultimate end is everlasting happiness with Our Father in heaven.
This ultimate end is realized even further by receiving the body and blood of Jesus in holy Communion, which is a pledge of future glory given to us, as the Church teaches.
Were there other aspects of Catholicism that you found particularly helpful in getting better?My Catholic faith was the most important thing overall. In college I would always turn to the Church, including participation at daily Mass. That’s a necessary start, but it’s not the whole story. You can’t just go to Mass every day and then expect everything to turn out fine without any other means to help. It’s not just the sacraments alone that help us; God wants us to work through our problems. A father gives his son a lot more in the long run when he expects him to make an effort, rather than just doing everything for him and giving him everything in one shot. God the Father is the same way with his children.
Do you have a patron saint, favorite devotion or favorite book?I picked up a St. Daniel medal from a Catholic store years ago in New Mexico and wear it around my neck. He’s pictured with a lion and is known as a patron of wisdom and understanding. I pray for wisdom and understanding, but they don’t usually come easily. We seem to learn best through trials. It’s not like God taps us on the head with a wand and then everything is perfect. There are struggles to get through — but they do make us better people if we take them in the right way.
As for reading, I’ve started lectio divina [prayerful reading of Scripture], which I learned from the Benedictine monks at a nearby abbey. My wife and I go there for retreats, and they tell us that most retreatants are actually non-Catholics. There seems to be a desire on the part of everyone to just step back and get in touch with the sacred, to simplify things and be at peace.
Simplifying things is so important, and spiritual reading is no exception. In The Seven Storey Mountain, Thomas Merton makes the distinction between spiritual reading and reading spiritually. We can read things which are good in themselves, but do we actually implement them in our lives, or do we just use them as academic points to back up our own opinions? Ultimately, it all boils down to charity: love of God and love of neighbor for the sake of God. That’s what Jesus tells us in the Gospels.
[This article was originally published in the National Catholic Register and is used by permission.]